Gay, married to a woman and happy

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By Tom Holmes

Contributing Reporter / Religion Blogger

 

How can you be gay, married to a woman and happy? 

I'm posting a conversation I heard on NPR this morning which doesn't necessarily reflect my point of view, but which made me think.  On Thursday, I saw a TV special on Old St. Pat's church in Chicago in which one of the priests said something like, "The church is not here to meet your needs.  We're here to go out and work for the Kingdom of God."

Is today's church trying too hard to meet people's psychological needs at the expense of being faithful to God's will and the mission of the Church.  After all, when Jesus called Peter and Andrew he did not say, "Follow me and I will resolve your issues."  He said, "Follow me and I will make you fishers of people."

In The Sunday Conversation, Weekend Edition Sunday brings listeners an unexpected side of the news by talking with someone personally affected by the stories making headlines.

Allan Edwards is the pastor of Kiski Valley Presbyterian Church in western Pennsylvania, a congregation of the Presbyterian Church in America. He's attracted to men, but considers acting on that attraction a sin. Accordingly, Edwards has chosen not to act on it.

"I think we all have part of our desires that we choose not to act on, right?" he says. "So for me, it's not just that the religion was important to me, but communion with a God who loves me, who accepts me right where I am."

Where he is now is married. He and his wife, Leanne Edwards, are joyfully expecting a baby in July.

But let's start earlier, in the mid-'90s, when Allan in high school, when he found himself thinking about boys more than girls. "It was a pretty immediate realization that it was in conflict with my faith," he says.

He didn't understand how he could resolve his feelings, he says, and had little support from his friends. "I didn't know anyone else who experienced same-sex attractions, so I didn't talk about it much at all," Allan says.

But at a small, Christian liberal arts college, he did start talking.

"My expectation was, if I started talking to other guys about this, I'm going to get ostracized and lambasted," Allan says. "I actually had the exact opposite experience ... I actually was received with a lot of love, grace, charity: some confusion, but openness to dialog."

Allan considered following a Christian denomination that accepts gay relationships, but his interpretation of the Bible wouldn't allow it, he says.

"I studied different methods of reading the scripture and it all came down to this: Jesus accepts the rest of the scripture as divined from God," he says. "So if Jesus is who he says he is, then we kind of have to believe what he believes."

Allan first met Leeanne in when they both worked as teenagers at a Christian summer camp. "I always joke with her that she was one of the cool kids and I was a raging fundamentalist nerd," he says.

They didn't click at the time, but in 2006 they both applied for the camp director job, and Leeanne got it. When she was ready to leave the position, he took her to lunch to scope out the job.

"We got off talking about the job and started talking about our experience of the last couple years," Allan recalls. "I don't want to be gushy or romantic, but I just melted inside, and thought, this is someone who understands graciousness. This is someone who understands acceptance, and this is someone I want to spend as much time with as possible."

He was drawn to her heart and soul, he explains. "Out of that was birthed our intimate relationship."

Leeanne says she knew Allan struggled against a sexual attraction to men. "I wondered if he was going to be able to put something like that behind him, or if it was going to be something that would affect our relationship," she says.

But they way they see it, people in any marriage must work to resist attractions from outside the relationship, whether from the same or the opposite gender.

"There's always going to be situations where a partner is sexually attracted to someone else and isn't necessarily dealing with sexual attraction with their partner," Leeanne says.

"Everybody has this experience of wanting something else or beyond what they have," Allan says. "Everyone struggles with discontentment. The difference, I think, and the blessing Leeanne and I have experienced is that we came into our marriage relationship already knowing and talking about it. And I think that's a really powerful basis for intimacy."

Allan says he does not identify as gay."I think I made conscious choices along the way to say this is something I experience," he says, "but this isn't the thing that defines who I am personally."

 

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Leviticus 25:44-46  

Posted: January 5th, 2015 5:30 PM

Quote: "So if Jesus is who he says he is, then we kind of have to believe what he believes". Other stuff Jesus apparently believes, 'cause y'know it's in the bible, the sacred Word of God and such: "You may purchase male or female slaves from among the foreigners who live among you. You may also purchase the children of such resident foreigners, including those who have been born in your land. You may treat them as your property, passing them on to your children as a permanent inheritance."

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